Up until now, I've never been able to write such a list. I do appreciate some things, but I could never say they are the things I wanted or needed the most. But I've recently realized there are some things I need. I'm not saying I know what they are, but I am saying they must be there.
I appreciate most of everything a girl is, and I can usually see what is most valuable in them, but I've found that there are traits some girls have which would kill me to cope with. Now, I'm not going to go through those things, but I am going to explain the one thing I know I need from anyone who holds my heart.
If I were to put anything at the top of my short list, it would simply be for a girl to genuinely care.
This may seem simple, but that's likely because you're thinking of the modern definition of that word, "care". Either that or you're fortunate enough to know individuals who portray that word truly, and if so you should count yourself blessed. When I think of that word, however, I think of someone amazing, and I'll briefly try to show you why.
If she truly cared, she would try her best to be honest with me.
If she truly cared, she wouldn't do the things she knew could hurt me.
If she truly cared, she would try to help me when she sees I'm hurting.
If she truly cared, she wouldn't tell me she loved me unless she knew it was true.
If she truly cared, she wouldn't let me want her if she knew she didn't want me back.
If she truly cared, she would stay with me when things are difficult.
And if she truly cared, she would try hard to make sure I knew it.
Caring to me is that extra step, the difference between "I like you" and "I love you". Now, I know first hand that you can love someone all you want, and whether they love you back or not doesn't mean you'll be together, but I also know I need someone to care if I'm going to love them fully. Knowing otherwise is only going to kill me after I try to give them my heart.
I can't say I know any girls who portray this definition, and unfortunately I can't even think of a girl who portrays half of this definition. But she must be out there. With as many people as God has created, I can't help but think it impossible for her not to be. Because if I could find a girl who cared even half as much, I know I would want so badly to love her. And I know that if I found a girl who cared truly, then that would be the only reason I would need to give her everything.
